And so it is

Do you ever cry when you end things? Since, whenever I've been broken up with the breaker has never cried in front of me, I found myself taken aback when I began to cry yesterday. But then I was glad I cried - that's how sad I was to hurt another person, and that's how much I would miss her presence in my life.

I hope I've made the right decision. I think I must have. It's very hard to tell sometimes, isn't it, thesbians? When you care about someone, but something just doesn't feel right. It still doesn't feel good. The girl is so kind and genuine...I hope we find a way to be in each other's lives. I hope I'm not self-sabotaging. I hope that one day the idea of a relationship will be ok with me again.